Unprotected flight

Speakers blasting with some rambunctious steroids
music like the colored hairs of these neon freaks
they like to drink tea and appear a mystery

are fighting norms that establish a cultural achievement
in society.

In search of sanity, I dole out miserable messages
of dissatisfied monogamy, to an inner world
That creates cacophony in the place of
Rapid, exact, intuitive misogynistic matrimony

He is like a false expectation that expected
nothing, ever, from me.
He never knew what to say, what to ask,
but he always had all the excuses
to prevent his world from collapsing
Into freedom

I want the Real Deal

I feel at home in the longing of my heart
No longer a challenge to surrender
It's all been stripped away, so take it Lord
So break in Lord
Like You have always done so well

I'll find myself back in Your arms again,
Like it has always been, will be

pride

it felt like the worst disease i've ever heard of

flesh-eating and degenerate

i felt like i couldn't be myself, and if i was

i was put down

like he was the most vile of the exploiters of men

because he used the name of God

to get his way in, use and abuse

to exalt his own glory while exploiting others

for theirs, like a hidden tyrant that guards well his evil

to gain rapport from the laymen who are unsuspecting

of his beguiling behavior

i've experienced either the most elusively beautiful reality

or the most detestable form of sin known to man

It's over now

I gave it to you in pieces
Strongly holding onto me
It's a strange experience like
the moments you struggled for

It's like just another memory
To release

I'm wasting away before your very eyes, don't you see?
Don't you care?
Am I a disease? Or am I alive just to be here.

Mommy

I spent all the years of my life
       Laughing your joys in its highest heights and lows
       Dancing all your dreams in a neat little row
               I caused a row
Every time you stopped feeling
       I cut open my heart to bleed for you
       I scoured the illicit planet for you
Living out all the dangers of heaven and hell
       The strangers you never got to know too well
       The freedoms you so intensely feared
               The strangest fantasies
               Appearing so real
I danced away the lies you believed, so fiercely
        That you left me
To fear

Come back to me
        I cry
You left me again

For a dream that will not disappear, though you try
       To forget the little girl you lost inside
       A sweet, faint, strange little memory
She comes in a flowery dress, like mine
And dances to the music of chrysanthemum fields
       She dances until the end of time
       Will she be found? In the home of her mother's love.
                Alone like your mother's home