The pain of fear and hurt
Could it be that healing a wound
Is the hardest thing that
I’ve ever done?
You’re healing me with all your love
Your love, your love
You’re everything I could ever want
I want, I want
You brought me back to life
To life, To life
To my earth
Drinking up the rain
That my heart always needed
In a drought, in a doubt
You woke me up with rain
I didn’t recognize it at first
Although I needed it
Desperately
Drinking everything up
You give me
My life is a book you want to read
You skipped class to see me
And I ran away from home to see you
But we were miles apart
For years and years
Across worlds and souls and bodies
And dreams and fears
We shed tears and tears
We met in the library of our hearts
How can that be?
But your words assuring me
We were meant to be
Together
Always meant to be
The rain to my earth
They say
Absence makes the heart grow fonder
I found
Your presence makes my heart beat harder
I long for
Your breath on my breath like water
I feel
The time it takes to see you grows longer
How long will it be,
I wonder
I wonder.
Altered reality and I'm digging my own grave
I misplaced my heart, again and again
It shattered into pieces before
That one time I decided to be brave
I'm just afraid I'll do it again
And again
And again
Shattered I'd be this time for good
If I let it run its course
For better or for worse
But if I don't let it flow through
I may never recover for good
Because it's my last chance
Singing a new song
With my voice cracking
Am I ready for this?
I'm terrified of the fire
Burning my heart, I want
To put it out with decisions
of cold logic
I can't measure the sky
so I'll settle for a plot of land
That I can come back to
When I see that your promises of the stars
Return to me empty
Guides me back home to earth
I’ll travel back in time to dance with you
Lie down in the grass
And sing to the moonlight
As if our hearts were never broken
I love the way your lips
Are the bed for mine
They are the most gorgeous
Pillows to lie on
For as long as i need
I am so happy
Why am i still hurt?
Why does it break my heart
Every move he makes
Away from us
I didn’t even know him
But I drew a picture of us
That’s broken
He drew it with me
To pursue his own path
He never loved me
But he wanted to
I loved him
But I never wanted to
Be with him
Because there was no future
For us. There never was
And there we were
Making things happen as though
We could make it happen
Making nothing work
Breaking myself down to
Make it work and make it work
And nothing worked,
It all meant nothing
To me, but nothing
Still, nothing
Still, nothing
Still hurts
the way you love me brings me to tears
I never thought i would feel this way
didn’t know I was lost for so many years
I was so deep underground
hardened beneath the surface
with labor and stress and fear
I fell asleep in most beautiful places
I met the most beautiful faces
but I hid behind all the pain
Your loving gaze
Your gentleness
Your intensity
wakes me up to another reality
where life is meaningful and easy
and emotions are not another harsh truth
but a simple beautiful song
that reminds me of you
