They

Drugs were my comfort
because she salted my wounds
Strange men were my counsel
because he squandered my dignity and worth.

Slandered, threatened, demonized
Yet neither feel the need to listen or sympathize.
Except to criticize
Something that is a by-product of their ignorance.

My voice ripped out of my throat, and my right to exist as myself.
Locked into a prison of ideologies and condemnation
Planting fear and shame into my daily walk
An enemy, beasts and demons created within me,
Nurtured by Their self-denial
Self-righteous
Self-hatred was my home, Suicide my prayer

In this ideo-fuckin-logical lair
To my left, Punishment
To my right, Failure
Above me was Damnation
Below me all Hell

broke loose to set the shit free that hit the fan-
fare that cost me a life worth living for-
feit
everything

They pretend that this struggle is a figment of my imagination
A sitcom goof, a casual stumble
Slip of the mouth, by mere folly
Slip of the mental process
to process and filter
what they wanted me to hear

But

Negligent manslaughter is a crime too
In the process of Their effort to hide their own weaknesses
Exploiting me for mine