I didn't find what i was looking for
Wanted you to know that
Coming back, discovered that i left myself
And not you.
I found myself again when i looked inside
The box that everyone tries to hide
Taped up and set in a corner
Stamped Fragile and all sorts of labels
The reason I walked away
The reason I fell for you
The reason I stayed
They scare me like a boogeyman
Walking gave me strength but
Not to give myself to you again.
The worst fear was that I would find
That I truly did love you
But i made sure to burn that bridge
And i never saw you in my dreams
Again
But I did find my other lovers there.
They told me a different story.
They were all pieces of you in the future
Chopped up to arrange for me a picture
Of what I have been trying to love.
Avoid.
A monster
